[chapter twenty-six]
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This story is gonna be darker, and deal with serious, sometimes disturbing
issues. Just so everyone knows. Okay? Okay.
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~Jimmie's POV~
The weird thing is, we've never even kissed.
And yet, I feel closer to her than anyone on the planet right now.
The last three nights we've shared my bed. Just sleeping, curled up together, my arms around her, holding her against me.
Three nights of her finally sleeping without screaming.
Three nights of me daydreaming about a day when she'll be healed. When we'll be normal.
When we might actually be…
Just be.
Together.
But for now, just having her close to me, holding her body against mine is more than enough.
I didn't tell Faye that I went over to her place yesterday.
And wanted to scream and cry and punch walls as I tried to pick up the pieces.
Papers and books all over the floor. Furniture overturned. Her TV thrown on the floor and smashed.
It made me almost physically ill to think of what happened there.
But I wanted to clean it up, to make it right before she ever came back here. The less the memories remained, the better.
I hope that's okay with her.
I told Jeff and Chad I was having a "personal crisis" so I could spend less time at the shop.
They've been surprisingly supportive and haven't pushed me to tell them what was going on when I told them it was private. Really private.
I wish Faye had friends like Jeff and Chad that had her back.
More than just me.
I wish I had an army to protect her from him. From all the evil that creeps out of his skin and infects her every thought and feeling and emotion. And has for so long.
But for now, all she's got is me.
I just hope me is enough for her.
Because god knows, she's enough for me.
I kiss her temple as she shifts in her sleep slightly, burrowing herself closer to my chest and sighing in contentment.
I hope there's a day when I can kiss her, really kiss her, and it will be okay.
Everything will be okay.
But for now, I'll take what I can get.
Her peace.